Ph.D. Adventures!

Honoring My Accomplishments (Ph.D. Year 2, Fall Week 6)

TLDR:

Decided to write. Caught up in grading for TA/TM responsibilities. Got very important house issues resolved. Helped kiddos with their schoolwork.

For the Interested Reader:

Accomplishments

I considered skipping this week’s write-up because even though I did a lot, it wasn’t anything I felt I wanted to report on, and those things I would like to report on I didn’t get to. However, some weeks are just like that and I believe IT’S PERFECTLY OKAY! I want to acknowledge my accomplishments and honor my efforts.

There were several days last week that I woke up and knew I would just be on from morning until bedtime and that I didn’t have time for my self and goal dailies nor my workout. Some weeks and days are just like that! My advisor was clutch in helping me being able to manage my workload by taking on one of my shepherding teams for the VR course.

  • Research: read up on conceptual models and have considered a few for my theory.
  • TA: Completed grading of first large programming assignment — The professor thanked me for my hard work
  • TM: Did a bunch of assignment grading, course organization, project shepherding, and student calming.
  • Got our house warranty people to take us seriously. I requested a new representative who would take care of us and be professional and polite and now we get to work with their sales rep whom we’ve had very good experiences with. He got the important things taken care of for us right away.

I’ve been helping my daughter with her schoolwork, like helping her study for a test late last night. This last week I helped her make a board game and we both independently named it “Kittyland.” She’s a fairly good designer so I mostly helped her organize her ideas and get started. Here is her game design sketch and final product:

What’s next

  • Theory paper:
    • Read up in VR for vernacular
    • Draw up a preliminary model for the current theory I’ve written up
    • Look into the publishing venue Rogelio mentioned to me last week.
  • Do grading for TM and TA
  • Return to my dailies and working out
  • Honor my accomplishments
  • Put these todos on my TODO board!

Roadblocks

Right now I feel good, but I now motivation is difficult.

Learning how to organize my time so I can do my research, TA/TM responsibilities, goals, help with kiddos’ schoolwork, work on my projects/hobbies, and still have fun. I think I’m starting to hit my stride, and then I have to deal with a house crisis, or a kiddo school task. Being the mama is a lot of work. I’m kinda tired.

Here’s a serious roadblock though that I think is important to discuss: I have been very sad, dare I say depressed, this past week. I broke down and cried multiple times. There are some people in my house that are also very sad, possibly depressed, and as the leader I feel a responsibility to help them as much as I can. They are of course responsible for their own happiness, but I have felt it weigh very heavily on me this last week, and it made me very sad. It’s a roadblock because it’s important to deal with these serious emotions and that takes time too.

Ph.D. Adventures!

The Craziness Continues! (Ph.D. Year 2, Fall Weeks 1-3)

TLDR:

Moved into a new home (Week one)! Unpacked (Week two-three) and got sick but then got better. 🙂 Did TA/TM stuff. Need to pick a direction for my research.

For the Interested Reader:

Accomplishments

My accomplishments for school are strictly for my TA/TM positions where I’ve done miscellaneous tasks for my professors and completed some grading.

I moved into a new house (happened at end of week one), have completed 10/15 tasks on my goal sheet for the house (including hung pictures/artwork!), and I am all unpacked, my kids are nearly unpacked also.

I am also finally feeling better!

What’s next

  • Pick a direction for research and start moving in that direction.
  • Start doing a minimum of 15 minutes of writing on school days (M-F)

Roadblocks

I’m still unsure whether choosing to TA was a wise choice and if I should have chosen an hourly research position instead. However, I think I should just be glad that I have a good Professor who supports my academic, professional, and personal goals and stop second-guessing myself. So far I’ve enjoyed TAing and learned a little bit too. So… I guess I just worked through that roadblock.

I am unsure what direction I should be going for my research, though I have several ideas. I need to pick one and start with it.

When I talked to Munzer he told me that we all feel unsure of our next steps in research, so that made me feel better. 🙂

Extra: Self-Care

Something that my first year as a Ph.D. student taught me is that I need to make time for self-care. During Spring 2020 semester that meant waking up and playing games for an hour before classes and work. This semester it means something a little different. This last week I created a 30 minute morning self improvement schedule. It includes three minutes of meditation, working out, reading a self-help book, affirmations, gratitude, scripture study, journal writing, prayer, etc. I get quite a few things done in those 30 minutes and it improves my mood so much. Even after an argument with my daughter this morning, which would usually keep me reeling for hours afterwards, I quickly brushed it off and was able to work on other things. I’ve made several tweaks to this regimen, but just doing it is what is important! It’s so nice to start my day off with meditation and end it with gratitude and some fun reading!

I also created an hour routine for doing self-care and goal projects which includes: research/writing, game development, a fun creative project, and learning a fun topic (something I just want to learn that may or may not have anything to do with school or research). I want to start implementing that starting today. Will need to report on that next week.